My Babies.

Since all I really do on this blog is show pictures of my children, I thought I would take a moment and really talk about them.
I always knew that I wanted to be a mom.  For as long as I remember, holding, loving, and kissing on babies has had a huge appeal for me.  I seek out babies to cuddle, they are like a drug for me. I love how they feel and smell and I breath them in any chance I get (even if they are not my own).
I think that if I could, and if I were wealthy enough, I would fulfill my husbands desire to produce eight of them.  Alas.....I am beginning to think that three is the magic number (although a forth is often debated).

The start of our blessed little family happened a bit unexpectedly.  When I first got pregnant with Logan I was 22 years old and Jeryd and I had only been together for a little over a year.  Little did I know how much our world would change with the birth of our number 1.

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LOGAN-

Logan is loving and kind and smart and social.  He reminds me a lot of Jeryd's dad in his ability to enter into any situation and immediately converse and connect with anyone that he comes in contact with.  He LOVES people, and is extremely curious about them.  I used to joke that he was my little icebreaker.  I am usually shy in social situations, but whenever I brought Logan anywhere, he would always break the ice and make any situation more comfortable.

REMY-

This little lion is cautious and wary (unless big brother is around to guide the way).  He is fiercely loyal and loves his mommy.  He is shy initially, but will love you unconditionally once you prove yourself worthy.   He is incredibly stubborn.......and in describing him, it seems like I could be talking about Jeryd.  There you go....He is VERY much like his father

SCARLET-

oh my sweet girl.  I am madly in love.  She is pure joy, I'm not even kidding.  From the moment she wakes up in the morning until she goes to sleep at night she is all smiles.  She is easygoing, happy, and curious.  It will be interesting to see how her little personality develops, but for now, I am just eating her up.

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I love these kids!

Don't get me wrong, as much as I love and adore these kids, and thank god everyday for giving them to me, some days (like with any relationship), I need a break.  Some days they are so awful, I question where they came from.  Some days I want to pull my hair out and throw a tantrum comparable to the ones they throw for me.  

No child is perfect and likewise no mother is perfect.  I do feel however that I was meant to have these children.  As silly as it sounds, I think that some cosmic force directed me to Jeryd and directed my path in order to create these little humans.  They were meant to be here, and I was meant to be there mother.

We have been thrown together in a relationship that is stronger than anyone will ever know.  They are living breathing pieces of my heart and soul that I have to protect and nurture them so that they can live and grow and become the people I know they can be.  

But it sucks having pieces of your heart and soul outside of your body, getting hurt, making mistakes.  It's scary. What if something happens to these little beings that Jeryd and I have created?  Could I go on? They are what makes life worth living.  They are my world.  I couldn't imagine an existence without them.

Wherever this life might take me, I am so fortunate to have met these kids, to have had the privilege of nourishing and growing them in my body and doing the same after bringing them into this world.  They make me a better person, and I am eternaly grateful and proud to be able to call them mine. 

Thanks for being my kids.